so....i met someone. i didn't go looking. she came looking for me.
a girl friend of mine had emailed me to say her friend thought i was handsome and sent me her picture. I told my friend to thank her for the compliment and let her know that I though she was very pretty. definite sparks/mutual attraction.
to say that this happened when i was "down" on the roller coaster that is my sitch...the whole concept of chapters in a person's life, they don't end and start many times as we might expect. this weekend and new person have breathed amazing life back into me. i'm taking all of this slowly. i am very interested in her and want to get to know her. i have stood for my marriage for almost a year with basically zero interaction with other ladies and exactly ZERO interest from my W. i do not have any guilt in pursuing this, internally it is time. as we are always told here, move forward, live for yourself...i am doing that.
i guess i'm just amazed at how life can sometimes turn on a dime. i am anxious to try and apply all of those things i've learned here about being a better man and better partner. i know i've dropped into i'm done, no more, etc, but i've been reading alot of good stuff who have said you will get your heart broke along the way, but don't give up because what is right for you is out there. simply put i'm just refusing to give up.
i wish you all well and my prayers for each of you that are hurting in your sitches.
