So W and I ended up having a talk. There was a lot of stuff said. We tried to keep it fact based w/o emotions.
Long story short, she claims we stopped being intimate during the R because she was hurt because I turned her down once. I let her know why (it was a physical problem I was having that I didn't really talk to her about, which is my fault). She claims that she felt like she was relying too much on me for validation, and it just eventually made her resentful that I wasn't getting the help that she thought I needed.
She mentioned during that convo that if she were to come back, she'd never be able to talk to several of her friends again. That seemed to be her sticking point - losing face. I asked her point blank if I was worth it to her...she said "Our S is worth it, but I would be losing a lot."
She's still seeking validation, but not from me.
She had asked to see S yesterday and today for a few hours each day. She did yesterday. I haven't heard from her at all today.
She'd definitely being a bit more flirty when she's around me. She's not ready though, and neither am I.
Current plan: finish the D, then continue going on with my life.
