The days pass, life goes on. No earth shattering GAL activities, but there is always something to do. I actually enjoyed staying close to home this weekend. I realized there was a time when I just HAD to find something to do on a Friday or Saturday, or I felt lonely. I didn’t feel that way. A glass of wine and a movie on Friday night. Saturday night a girlfriend came over for dinner. We sat at the kitchen table for 3 hours and talked! No, not about “it”. Some of that of course, but mainly just stuff. It was nice. Church, the gym, errands filled up the rest of the weekend. And another week starts. I have fleeting thoughts of H. Mainly when I do my bible study or when I’m in church. So much of the church sermons and my bible study is about hope and purpose now. My thoughts go to H, and I pray he will find purpose and hope someday. I realized I’m not lonely, but he surely is.
Met with IC this week, just to regroup and discuss if/when/how to have interactions with H. She didn’t think it bad to reach out from time to time just to ask “how are you”. Of course I discussed my worry over his depression and safety. He has a pistol with him, so I did ask H if he would consider letting me keep it in light of our last conversation. He said he would consider it, with of course emphasis on “consider”. I don’t expect to see it.
I made an appointment with an attorney just to meet her and ask some basic questions. That comes up on Wednesday, so I’ve been putting together a one-pager on our finances and a list of questions. Can’t hurt to be proactive. If H decides to blindside me with papers, I want to have a plan. I don’t think he would, but he avoids addressing anything difficult, so he may just do it because perhaps he wouldn’t be able to face me.
So a friend of mine that fell off the exercise/healthy wagon wants to run a 5k, so I decided to do it too. Had a good start on the treadmill today. I’ve run a few in the past and even got a few medals. But, that was 5 years ago, so we’ll see. Goal is to run it in under 28 minutes. That was my best time back then, I think.
I don’t come to the forums as much as I used to. It kept me too mired in my situation. But, I read from time to time, and think about you all a lot. I pray for peace for all of you!
