Determined now as I move forward..

[Dtrmned]

Tons of stuff going on but I am handling it much better.
I am not as jumpy or quick to lash out at anything lately.
I'm continuing my GAL's, especially the weeks when the kids are gone.
My D is struggling with her issues and it is difficult to co-parent on a level field with someone who:
1- doesn't want to talk to me since I called her out and she pretty much knows that I know she isn't the "victim" in this.
2- in her wayward state her values are so misconstrued that I have no idea where she is coming from.
D is almost giving up. I am supporting and validating her feelings and emotions. But I feel my efforts will not be at all fruitful if her mom and I do not come together to get our D through this.
Other than that, I am moving forward. Bills are getting transferred from me being the only one responsible to either being split or moved to W entirely. She has some BIG surprises coming up for her. Car registration, insurance, health insurance that she will now have to pay for, etc. I have no idea what she is doing or with whom she is doing it with. I would love to say that i don't care, but I can honestly say that I don't obsess like I did when she was in the house with us. We will go days at a time without texting and it has been a couple of weeks since we actually spoke on the phone. Humorously and sadly (to me) she had to drop some things off for the kids. I heard the front door open and the reopen and I asked my D what she was doing. She responded that mom just dropped off a few things for us. She is so set on not seeing me that she didn't even come in and see her son or her dogs (she hasn't seen them in about 3 weeks).
I am getting my legs back underneath me more and more everyday. I'm preparing for everything to blow up as the realities of life hit my W. I am also prepared that maybe they won't. She might be just fine on her new path. And that's ok too. The wish of karma is huge but also the wish for her to be happy and a good mom to my kids I think is bigger.
Looking to get more social. In no way shape or form am I saying I am ready to date or anything like that at all. There was a work related event in a couple of weeks that would have been fun, but it is a couples Gala and I am not interested in seeing a few hundred coupled people having fun interacting in a room together. At all.
But, looking forward to the weekend with some sports, hikes and probably a trip to the sports bar to watch a few games on Sunday. The kids go back tomorrow to their mom's so the house tomorrow so it will be back to just me and the dogs. It's lonely when they are gone, but I have made a list of home projects to do this week while they are gone to keep me busy.
I am db'ing all the time. Although with almost no interactions it is very few and far between. I don't initiate any conversation unless it is about the kids or financial that has to be dealt with.
Still a few shreds of hope but I am not counting on it.
Moving forward it is doing what is best for my children and me.