B... I could have written that last entry. It seems like you and I are in very similar places. Resigned with a level of acceptance but still struggling with the painful feelings that come when someone you loved and trusted abandons and betrays you. I, too, have many, many things to be thankful for but you are right, it does not stop the pain. I am grateful that as time goes by though, that the pain is not as sharp as it was in the beginning. That’s progress at least. Hang in there. Keep posting. You are not alone... I know you know that. I also know that future will bring some happy surprises as long as we are open to it. (((HUGS)))