Westo -- Good morning, my friend. I owe you a post for your brave post. Remember, we are all struggling with something dark. Gerda included. Big time. Bringing that into the light is beautiful, good for you!
About H -- well, yes, if we are in a conversation about literature or really if he gets going at any point, he talks an unedited version of that. An e-mail like that probably took him an hour of mania to compose and edit it. His dissertation is like that and I would periodically edit it for him so it's understandable and then he throws out my edit. He has been working on it for 10 years and probably has a thousand pages and can't finish it. Other times he seems a little normal and we are all at dinner table normally or I am being kind even if he's a little frenetic or smoldering but this week I literally have to turn to the wall when he comes in because I can't bear to look at him. It is because of this that I am terrified when the children are with him. Not afraid he will hurt them physically but being around him is hard even for an adult to bear, that energy of darkness and fury and convoluted thoughts.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
