Journaling Wednesday. Quite a washout as I spent much of the day travelling. I'm in a small resort town, with only dial-up access from the rooms, life is SLOW here
Spoke to H last night and he updated me that OW's H called him to confirm that A was over. It was quite depressing as H was chatting about how OW's H was amazed that in such a short time my H was able to gain so much trust from OW, how OW continues to maintain that my H will be the love of her life forever etc. The fact that H found it necessary to tell me about this is curious. I almost get the sense that he is trying to justify why it is taking so long to wrap up?
I also think that part of my problem is how H and OW's H have been having discussions about OW and her needs, her amazing strength in holding on, her priorities etc . I guess the child in me is feeling left out. Bruised pride may have a lot to do with the current angst
I sometimes feel that with dbing, much of my underlying hurt and anger has been put on the shelf away from daily life. It may be that now some of the 'risk' to R is abating, emotions that have been left aside are demanding attention.
Time to tackle these uncomfortable feelings. Sounds like a bit more hard work ahead. Just need to keep on swimming... Slowly
