This new thread is to help me mark a new phase of self awareness
Tuesday was interesting, to say the least. H called me early in our work day, to say he intended to break things off with OW. It was as if he wanted to rehearse what he was planning to say to her. Why was I not jumping for joy? Because this is now the 3rd time I've been told that the A is over. Because I find myself on a journey of discovery that will continue regardless of the A's status. This was a moment of truth for me.
Briefly, I am 39 yrs old, H is 41 yrs, we are school sweethearts, have been together for 21 years, lived together for 18, married for 10. Since last June I noticed changes in H’s behavior, nothing major, just more attention to looks, clothes, unpredictable movements etc. H dropped bomb on October 11th, was having EA with ex-colleague (42 yrs, M with 2 kids). I did all the wrong things, cried, plead to end the A, all to no avail. In fact, EA escalated to PA shortly after bomb. Some attempts to end have transpired, most recently the breakup of 'yesterday'
I discovered Michele, dbing and this wonderful board mid-Feb and have seen some great results. I feel I need to continue be honest with myself, and having the board to post to is a good motivator!
