(((Turbine))). You have to give yourself permission to let go Turbine. I agree with Steve. You need to go to an IC. And a trip to see your doctor wouldn’t hurt either. I started a medication for depression and anxiety just over a month ago. I think it has helped take the edge off my grief. Hard to say but your lack of sleep and stuckness tell me that you might benefit from some medication short term. If you find yourself spinning late at night, you could also call the crisis line...most communities have one, I think. It’s not counselling per say but it could help you to just get some things off your chest and it’s anonymous. Sorry you are feeling so miserable. It WILL get better if you start to focus on you and GAL. It just takes time and effort. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You will eventually get there. (((HUGS)))
