I'd get into IC. Understandably, just like me after BD, your self-esteem is in the toilet. Get some help to work through all of that.

My other advice is to not settle for an IC that isn't getting it done for you. Give them 2-3 visits tops. Do not be afraid to shop for a good IC.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018