My Story Pt 2

[Manta]

I know my worth too Steve. I'm successful and have a wonderful career. I'm honest, kind and always had a positive outlook on life. I'm always there to help my friends and give them support when needed.

I have a gsoh and can get up and make people laugh and sing. I'm Irish, so I love my music and having the craic.

I have lots of good honest lifetime friends, who have always been there for me through the years.

I was never afraid of meeting women and when the time is right, I know I can meet someone again. I'm just not there yet. My heart is with my WW.... It's something I can't just turn off...

She has hurt me deeply and I don't know can I ever forgive her.

I want to be happy and 2019 I'm focusing on me again. I'm planning little holidays and weekends away already. I'm not sitting here pining and hoping that my phone will ring. I have a feeling in time, she will come back when the fantasy wears off and she realizes all the hurt she caused not just me, but her family, mutual friends and also her own self-respect. Most likely, it will be when I have moved on and have given up hope.

I hold my head up high. I'm not perfect, but I was a good husband and did my best for her. She blew it.
I'm not waiting for her to return, but I'm mentally preparing myself for whatever will happen and getting stronger day by day in the process.