LBS dealing with WW (part 7) (piecing?)

[Joe2017]

I have to admit something. I am having very real bouts of anxiety regarding my sitch. The feeling is almost the same as the feeling of loss I felt after BD, which is very odd to me. It comes and goes, but when it happens I want to run and break up with my XW.

I had some of it happen to me yesterday. I was driving home and I realized how much my ex-GF actually understood me as a person and I wanted to call her, just to talk to her again. I didn't, of course. That would have been really inappropriate.

And here is another thing. We had a conversation about how she could make me feel more secure about our relationship. So now she js trying really hard to make me feel comfortable. She tells me ILY multiple times a day and has been complimenting me a whole lot. I know it's... Kinda forced? Only because now she will say things to reassure me but I'm not 100% if she means them. What a mind f.

Oh yeah, and on top of all of this, something makes me want to leave the relationship. I can't explain this urge to quit, but it is there. My XW is trying pretty hard to win me over and I am thinking about leaving her? For what? Something easier, I'm assuming? I'm confused by my own feelings.

Ugh.