I agree with all of your depression thoughts and different medications. I look back over the years and my W has been on and off anti depressants our entire M. Some have worked some haven't and some have had adverse side effects, like weight gain that have made things worse for someone with very low self esteem.

W is on a good one now that seems to help but she still expresses being depressed sometimes and hopelessness for her to ever be happy. You've heard my story about W appearing "off her rocker" and I have discussed with IC at times that I think my Ws waywardness could be her trying to escape her depression.

H-50
W-48
T-19
M -18
S23, S14
BD - 5/9/2018
OM discovered 5/10/2018

In house sep - 8/18/2018
Rope drop 2/15/2019
R'ing since 3/15/2019