It's amazing how we can grow and then realize how we need to grow even more. It's like the drill sergeant that tells you to do ten more push-ups right when you get to the last one. I guess we'll all keep learning, improving, evolving, and changing for as long as we live but it does feel unsettling during this stage in life when we expected to be enjoying our tine with our spouses and kids, reaping the rewards of having worked hard in our 20's and early 30's, and living a relatively stable life. I was asking you on my thread if you found a different religious path when you left the one you were on? Or if you're just self-guided now? I'm just curious. It seems either way you've been on a path towards transcendence. You sound like a wise person. I feel like many women will be interested in you when you're ready to meet someone new. It doesn't seem like you did anything wrong in your marriage aside from having the usual minor flaws, if any, that we all have. Your wife may be unwilling to recalibrate her thoughts or to see how you have changed but I'm positive your kids will always be proud to have you as their father and everyone who knows you will see your good intentions and the strength you've built from overcoming all these hardships. You seem to be well-balanced and you think rationally. You don't always have to be strong though. We all have times when we struggle but it's nice to see the example you set by sharing what you've learned and realized each time you go through a hardship. I hope things keep getting better and better. The good news is you're still young!
