Newbie who is a mess

[Sansa]

Thanks DJV
I will go in to marriage counseling by myself on Tuesday to hear what the therapist has to say that but my guesses he will say we shouldn’t continue in therapy because how can you work on things when we were not having any time together he will work and then go to his apartment from now on. I really do feel like throwing in the towel right now and just filing for divorce I know I shouldn’t do anything while I am emotional but I feel like nothing has changed my husband is still unhappy and it’s been Six months. I know I need to move on regardless I know it will hurt less and less overtime right now I know things are going to suck really badly for me.
Just like I have said in previous posts going to therapy has been in powering for me and I realized a lot of our troubles are caused by him and he Initially when he when he dropped the DB,I was to blame for everything but today he told me that he knows some of it is his stuff and told me he was depressed and that it didn’t have anything to do with me that I think that is a crutch. I think he wants me to feel sorry for him that he is depressed but I think he will say anything at this point. He said to me that he knows that I am stressed out when I am around him and I am doing things to try Please him I told him I’m stressed out because he is shitty to me sometimes when he talks to me and he will be short with me and sometimes lose his temper, and he admitted that that was true. I told him that no matter what I say he is always going to view me in a certain light and there’s nothing I can do to change that. I told him I wanted him out of the house when I got back from walking the dogs and sure enough he was gone and some of his clothes are gone and he has not texted me or called me. I am going to be strong and force myself to go dark although I know I will have to talk to him at some point about our son and about our future plans. He has made his decision to get an apartment and he told me he is unhappy so my guess is he will probably want a divorce eventually. I guess it doesn’t matter I have to focus on myself right now. Easier said than done.