/journaling right now

MIL is over right now.....took OS to get a haircut.

I’m venting, so 2x4 as necessary, but I’m really starting to resent her presence in our family sphere.

Thing is, is the last couple of months, there have been more outings where it’s been W, MIL, OS and YS. And on Christmas Eve, as I was wrapping gifts in the living room, I heard W and her mom gossiping about work, but I also heard MIL make a comment about how we “should try to keep [OS] in the current school district, in spite of the craziness that is sure to happen in the coming year.”

I feel like I’m trying to be erased as part of the family, both by W and MIL. Pics, when they happen, don’t really involve me, and there are the outings where it’s the 4 of them. Right now, the 4 of them are watching something while I’m watching football (though I have had YS a good amount this afternoon), journaling, will be using the time to grade / prep for school, as well as come up with stuff for L meeting. Something just tells me that MIL has a whole lot to do with this—providing material and moral support for W. MIL is the only family either of us have out here—and I’m sure she’ll take care of W and the boys, no matter what. Me? Eh. I’ll be on my own. God, I kinda hate this right now.


M: 36
W: 30
T: 9
M: 7

S6 (OS)
S7mo (YS)

ILYBINILWY BD: Feb. ‘18

W Wants S / D BD: 1/4/19

H / W still in-house

D papers from W: 3/14/19