I am so sorry. I don't understand how this could have happened, but please try to stay strong and positive. Just because your she got the parental rights now doesn't mean that she is going to want the all of the children 24/7 every day. She's going to find out that having them is a full time job and there is no rest for the weary.
Hopefully when things settle down and euphoria of winning this case wears off, she will "soften" and allow you more time with the children.
Stay positive and above all else stay strong. She may have won this round, but you can always fight for the 50/50 again.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
