Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Journaling,

And might be my last as I have nothing much
Left. Trying to heal from all this.

Just had the meeting with W and OW
And the conclusion in court GAL gives W
The parental rights. This is what I was told
Trios lives with W with no limitations for me.

So I drive to W pick up trio's and have them back
To W and every other weekend's.

Many might read this and ask How... I am also
Here asking myself that question.

W and OW walk in smiling and all. Like wow
If looks could kill I would be dead.

OW kept jumping in and putting her input.
And using the world We, We so now I heard
Everyone W needs to fail... I honestly don't think
W will W has OW playing Mom who going to be there.

I had many questions but as I was told is court order
W says in Spanish "you should have left it how it was.


Am guessing me fighting for Trios to be together
I honestly am lost now I went from day 1 since
I had them been fighting for them W in reality didn't want
To be a mom to 3 kids.

I have not only lost s10 and lost s9 and d10
When trio's explained they starting crying. Why
Why can't s10 be with us in mommy M home.

I honestly have lost faith in the system
I felt like I was in a Jerry Springer show

Unfortunately in my state the law [censored].
They only look at stability and financial.

My step mom and best friend who have seen
This unfold are in shock. They just at all.
Like wow... I guess my gut was right when I said
The GAL are friends.

I remember months ago my d10 said they went
To GAL daughter soccer game and W and GAL are
Friends. I tried not to say anything as I know if I would
Have accused it would have caused me problems


But for this to go in W favour after CPS was called not
Only from me it was therapist also and W has now been
Given kids like I ask myself should I have not filed
For s10. Was W right I should have left it alone.

The positive is trio's are officially together and they
Will know mom M did kept her promise we will be
Together.

I ask for all the prayers. I am not giving up
In them I am going to do what it takes for me
To get 50/50