As you know my situation and circumstances are similar to yours. We're all human and we need human connections to survive and thrive. I don't know where I'd be without my best friend who is a man even though he lives far away. Do you have any female friends that you trust? Even a female colleague or old friend from school? It's good to know you can make it on your own. It helps you to feel strong and resilient. But sometimes you need to be able to feel weak too, and grieve, and have closeness to someone that you trust. A caring female friend would be a nice cushion for you at this time. Someone to hold your hand and listen. Maybe cook your favorite meal and have a long all-night conversation. If that's not possible you can look forward to dating in the near future and to finding a woman who will love and cherish you all over again. You're much closer now than you were before. It's just hard because we're in such a transitional state right now. I relate to so much of what you're saying. I'll write more later!
