Thanks for the perspective J. I just need this to be over with as it feels like I am still hanging by a thread to the past. Even though I have made great strides in detachment, I know getting past the steps of separation and divorce will allow me to unlock other levels of detachment.
I appreciate your words man. Self-compassion is what I am exercising right now. The old me would be beating myself up for the 'failures', but I know that I took serious account of my flaws and life circumstances and did the best I could do with the hand I was dealt. I could've done better, but I can't change the past.
I am embracing the gloominess of today, but I am already feeling better as I have been aware of my emotions and I am feeling them rather than dismissing or burying them. I know I have work to do for my life and I have some sense of control over it.
I just want to be done with this and bring a finality to all of it. I know I need that to just release everything and move ahead with life.
