Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Update and some advice

Just got an email we meeting tomorrow
To go over what they want us to do and we
Have an emergency meeting Monday.

Also in email says for W to bring OW,
Because OW lives with W and involved.
I froze I literally froze when I read the email.

We must all meet tomorrow in office and with kids

I know that now I must just let go.

If W wants to play house with OW then I am simply
Going handle over my robe. I now see this is
something I can't control and I am seeing what
Lawyer is saying. Let W fail you must just wait
If W wants to be a fulltime mom then say Ok.

Tomorrow I will go in there clear minded and
As long it pertains to the kids say Ok.

At the end like my lawyer said you got what you
Wanted M and that was for Trios to be together
Let everything else go. And I am doing that.

Is heart breaking to any Mom/Dad out here who
Has never been separated from kids, I remember
Taking business flights and catching redeye so
I wouldn't be away more then 24hours. Yes that's
The type of mom I am.

I also know that my childhood of not
Having two parents, or loving home
Has affected my parenting and even my marriage

I didn't do date nights because I felt kids didn't choose
For parents to be out to have fun.

Yes I know this was wrong in my thinking if
I could go back to something's I would change
God knows I would. But speaking for now
I can see clearly how that could affect the trio's
They think that the world revolves around them
And when W doesn't do what Mom M does they
Don't understand.

If Trios fall this momma kiss there ouchy and say
It will be better. W was more your not dying you
Going to live. So our parenting and loving is very
Different.

I am starting to see W will never take care of them like
I would. All I can do is pray my Angels will protect them.