You have travelled a long road D and you have made your inner voyage so as to stand where you are now. Your W is no visible around the horizon...Your "if"s long for the former W, she´s gone. You have managed hope and expectations under DB rules so you have reached the place where you are standing with strength and consistency. Your arguments are perfectly clear.
Take your time to ease your mind, relax...( I don´t like to use "but" here so I won´t use it...)
