It's just so confusing to me because in your case he was like me but HE cheated and left, right? And married AP? So everything I'm reading, all of the introspection, it's all blurred together. Like, I'm the abuser, for the most part, if you can call it that. But I didn't do "The One Worst Thing." I'm the one who is sitting here figuring it out and trying to make it better. But it's already too late for her.
Were there ever times when you though to yourself, "You know, if he hadn't cheated and left, if he had shown that he was making changes to those character traits, I would have been willing to forgive him and focus on the good things?"
I know you said to not think about her, and I'm getting there. But I am curious.
H: 35 W: 33 M: 11 T: 13
4/10/18: I discovered A and confronted ("BD1") 6/23/18: I moved out 8/31/18: MC ends ("BD2")
