Letting Go. Detaching. Done Engaging.

[Did]

Good to hear from you Steve, hope things are going well for you in your sitch.

W asked my timetable knowing our MC had recommended I set a timetable months ago. Maybe i shouldnt have told her but I did about a month ago. Do I hold strong to my word of Feb timetable.

I do want to be married with my partner who I love and miss but dont really see much of any hope. The date was to let myself really move on. I dont want to be separated anymore. Being technically married messes with my head.

For example, I just have a hard time picturing my W sitting at the Thanksgiving table with my family. Which was something my brother asked me at thanksgiving. I talked to her briefly yesterday when dropping off D4 stuff and dog. After everything I still think shes a good person. So in the end yes I would still want to be married to her.... but she has said stuff like she doesnt want a relationship with me... Dont listen to anything she says but I just feel its done, an expired relationship