Whirlwind of Hurt 7

[Twofeet]

Well today was D-day. She handed me the hammer and the nails and basically said its now your turn to put the final nails in the coffin of the MR. I went down to the mediator/lawyers office to review (cause W forgot to when she signed), and sign the decree. I looked at the paralegal and said " that's it?" She said "yep that is it." We looked at each other shrugged our shoulders and I left and went back to work. In 7 to 10 business days it will be official. I will be civilly divorced, but in the eyes of my religious faith/church/God I will not be divorced... Ugg.

I didn't get one of those weight off my chest relief feelings like I have read on here. I failed to DB my MR and just kind of feel bummed and down. I feel like a failure even though I probably shouldn't. I called and let my folks know it was done and my Mom kept saying well TF from here on out its only going to get better. To which I responded well I hope the better hurries up, I could use some more better right about now.

W lit my phone up this morning wanting to know if I went down to sign. I pissed me off and I wanted to give her a piece of my mind, but I didn't. She didn't get any response. Its just not worth my time. I am not bitter, I am okay, I will be okay, I am just extremely disappointed.