two steps forward, three steps back (burned)

[SoTorn]

I am in the same situation burned. I don't want to live like this at all. However, I don't want to file for D. I still do not want a D. However, I have been GAL and detaching like my life depends on it, because it actually does depend on it. I have gotten to a point where I am no longer anxious about wondering if WW is going to file for D. If she does, I will not hinder it.

However, at this point I have not gotten to where I will file for D. My sitch isnt that old. But I have been detaching myself almost completely from her as much as possible. I feel a lot better. I don't know when or how long it will be until its me that files for D. I do know that I am now skipping turns on the emotional roller coaster.