Letting Go. Detaching. Done Engaging.

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Thanks Ovr, I had never facetimed until 6 months ago. It is nice to see D4, still hard for me not to have her in my life on a daily basis. I didnt call back last night. They facetimed again this morning and I called back when I was ready. I met a very pretty woman yesterday after being out watching football. She has two kids and her divorce is just being finalized. Smart, driven. She is aware of my sitch... may see her again not sure. Either way will keep it friends. Kind of feel like Im just accepting its over with W. Hurts my heart but it is what it is.

Every relationship has two sides and we are all 50% responsible. I was more than 50% accountable for the marriage falling apart. But she has never taken any accountability, and she made some decisions that made our lives very difficult. I just dont know if we would be happy together unless there was such radical change. The sexual stuff with sharing while that may be hot I would never share my wife. I would lose respect and the marriage would just be based around sex rather than trust companionship and love. Im just not seeing us building something together at least not anytime soon.

Going to write my 4 paragraphs per day morning goal, part of a new morning routine including affirmations, visualization / stretching and a positive podcast... .focus on me. Later going to D4 school - at ymca to workout, then have to go to W to get dog. I asked her schedule she said shes working out then napping. Im not going to allow any dramatics. If she asks to talk Ill keep it short and she better have some fing clothes on. Doubtful we talk at all, I wont pursue it at least.