Just continue to lift, try to eat healthy, and sleep when I can.
I don’t know why I’m struggling to GAL.
Her words last night cut through me. She made a lot of valid points about my role in this. I’m trying to move forward, but the weight of this keeps bringing me down. I looked at the missed opportunities to fix this and to be honest, I could not see them. At all. Maybe because for the first 7 months I was doing everything wrong.
By the time I started to work on turning it around, her R with OM took root. But I had to let her go and make her go on journey. I felt like it was the right thing to do.
It’s been one year exactly today since BD. I’m in a better place personally, but I am still, as a whole, a broken person being pieced very slowly. And it hurts.
