(((Burn))). I know how you feel. My H is the same way. Thirteen years means very little... and we do have kids. It s#cks. I know you are probably sick of hearing people tell you that being young with no kids is an advantage. You are still grieving so it means nothing. In a year or two, however, you will be fully appreciating those two things. I predict that if you maintain the great changes you have made and continue to grow, you will meet a fantastic woman who will very much appreciate Burn 2.0. But, for now, you just have to focus on you and have faith that time will take care of the rest. (((HUGS)))