Uncertain of What I Have (Thread 4)

[Twofeet]

Hey Bo,

Just want to respond to your clarification on the damage being done that I mentioned in your 3rd thread. What I ment was she is resentful of you and the MR whether it was you or self imposed. You are waffling back and forth on if you find her attractive, in love, or want to try and make it work. Your MR is damaged or in a state of disrepair. If she said to you tonight hey Bo forget what I said ILY let's make it work. You can't tell me there isn't some residual damage or hurt. That's what I ment.

I just want to say that after communion in mass when you go to kneel and pray is when I usually tear up without fail. Reading about you in communion and talking to the priest at the coffee shop brings up my own emotions and makes me tear up. It's ok, God didn't do this to you. People do this not God. Read my thread around the time of my work trip/party. I was wondering to God what I did to deserve this. Another Stander posted a bit of a wakeup call that I think was what initially got the ball rolling towards detachment. I am not fully detached, but I am now starting that journey.

I wish there was a way to get to know ppl IRL. I would call you and others on here to talk, commiserate, or show support. Heck, I have friends in SoCal I haven't seen in a while so I would even fly down to Cali for a couple of days to lend my support.

Keep praying and keep fighting the fight. If it ends you end with the dignity knowing you didn't quit.