I am not saying this is you, but I lived with an H who never heard me, disregarded everything I said and every feeling I ever had, and sometimes called them stupid. So to even ask my exH for an ounce of something took all my courage and willpower. And I never ever would dream about trying again when I got turned down or insulted.
That hits pretty close to home.
And it's why I worry that taking the WW "tough love" approach that I started doing in September made it worse.
Be it as it may. Pour yourself a big cup of STFU juice and get your a$$ in gear. Wallowing in despair and pointless regret is utterly futile and a literal waste of time. And the more time you waste, you prolong your healing and slow your growing. Dude, you have serious growing to do. SERIOUS.
And again, chastising yourself about your September actions and worrying what im might as or has not done to your R is about as useless as snow cover stats of midwest Colorado in 2005-06 season.
