two steps forward, three steps back (burned)

[burned]

Thanks all. Heading into IC now, will post more later of course.

What I’m struggling with today is:
1. The weight of all the things I could have done better
2. The regret that it’s too late (most likely)
3. The paradox that for the moment all I can do is be super tough and self-protective, minimally responsive to what SHE wants. Which is the opposite of what I feel I should do, because that crap (TJT, you NAILED it, shooting her down and making her feel bad about it) is what got me here.

“I’m not giving you a cent more.”
“See, you never cared about my needs. You’re a controlling a-hole.”