Journaling: Well I did a little backsliding today. I've been doing so much research on whether or not cheaters will cheat again, and the overwhelming evidence is that they will continue to cheat as long as they can get away with it. They can also become serial cheaters, and cheat again and again because of how they can become addicted to the thrill of the game. Well, sht. That crap got inside my head all day long.
But it got me thinking, and I made XW tell me about any interactions she's had with OM.
So, I found out that OM has asked to use her as a personal reference for a rental application for a house. She told him that she gave him a good reference. She was friendly, but not wordy. I told her that I did not like how friendly she was. She said she is trying to keep the peace and still wants his kid to have a place to live. I told her I understand that, but restated that I do not like how friendly she was to him. He also temp checked her, and she ignored those messages. So that's good, I guess.
Now, I know that the interaction was not gushy and over the top but I still don't like it at all. This might be a deal breaker for me. I'm seriously thinking about breaking this off.
She has not stopped giving me everything I ask for, but I can tell she is getting tired of all of my demands. To be fair, it has been pretty harsh for her over the past couple weeks because I have been making her painfully aware of the reality of what her actions caused during her A.
I need to take a step back and re-evaluate what I am doing and why I am doing it. Recon might be the wrong thing to do. I am alright with ending this if it is the best course of action.
OK, going to bed now. What a weird few weeks. Lol.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018