Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Journaling,

Nothing much on this front,

So yesterday around 9pm my phone rings
W was like having anxiety speaking fast

I calmly said W am here calm down
What's going on.

W, s10 and s9 are being mean.
Yes W used those words

W then said I can't do this no more them not
Listening, I listened to W I said ok W
Am here would you like me to pick them up

W I don't know can you talk to them, Yes W
Put me on speakerphone

I proceeded to speak with boy's I ask them what's going on.

Boy's didn't want to go to bed they are not tired

I proceeded to speak with them.

I again spoke with W and said I am here I'll
Pick them up. Is ok to feel overwhelmed.

W said ok thank you
W proceed to text, boys finally calming down
I said ok. I ask W do you want me to pick them up

W said yes Friday afternoon, I simply replied OK
See ya Friday. W did emoji smiley face.

I of course didn't sleep I was a wreck
But I can see W is cracking. But am also so
grateful W felt comfortable enough to call me.

That was a new thing. W replied thank you for backing me up

I replied just because we are divorce doesn't mean I won't
Back you up. Regardless the trio's must respect you.

W text on and off till midnight. I wonder is W finally feeling
Something. Or is it because court is soon.

Is like walking on eggshells with W.

Hoping for the best.