Some days I wonder how together I am about all this, so glad to hear I'm making some progress. Trying to focus on PMA and GAL as much as I can.
You're correct in that I'm probably overthinking all this--I should charge W rent for how much she has been in my head about this.
Believe it or not, I've been doing my level best to stay the F away from her as much as possible--to give her that space but also perhaps give her a taste of what it would actually look like. W grabbed my arm at Knott's Berry Farm, W has been bringing YS around 'to see what Daddy is up to.' I've been in the living room doing some random school work, reading, or crashing these forums. Last 2 nights she was here, she went to sleep soon after I said goodnight and I went to sleep.
I tend to live in my head at times and overanalyze--I sometimes want to plan out as many outcomes as possible so I'm prepared mentally. Even if she does say she wants S / D, I also know that that is not necessarily the end, even though it would probably feel like it at the time. I know that she is fatigued, and probably at least somewhat PPD, and that her moods and emotions can be variable, and will change.
If she is so concerned about how our relationship affects the kids, what exactly does she think S / D will do then? I know the 'kids are resilient' trope--but it would be one thing if I was unfaithful or abusive. It's totally another to intentionally inflict S / D because "Mommy is sad."
