Just catching up on your thread. I pretty sure you know this, you are doing really well.
I love your goals for 2019. The learning to knit, was an interesting nudge for me, I haven’t knitted in so long. I think the last thing was a scarf for W.
You mentioned you see yourself within this theme of “waiting”. In my opinion that is a good place to be, you do not need to push for, or make a decision, with regard to H and a relationship. That is what I discovered, keep moving forward, keep healing, GAL, are all well and good. The limbo you will find is only for H and R.
It sounds like you have a handle on that as well. Being patient and letting answers come to you.
Best of luck with knitting and all the goals. (I should really declutter my house also )
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
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