Your vacation sounds like it was fantastic. I'm so glad you are stepping outside your comfort zone and exploring the world. You have come a very long way and how you are handling your journey brings a smile to my face. You had a difficult time at first...but look at you now. You are enjoying life and offering very wise advice to posters.
I can't believe your son is 30! Time sure has been moving along very quickly. He's been w/the same girl for quite some time and one day, he'll decide to pop the question...but he's enjoying life as it is at the moment. You raised a great son and you can be proud of the decisions he has made.
Continue as you have been...you are doing great!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
