[Grace21]

Thanks for the thoughful reply. It validates my feelings and the path I have chosen for now.

If I would get into a serious relationship with someone, I would for sure pursue a D with H. Until then, I still want H to initiate the process and be responsible for that.

I feel the same way. I didn't ask for this, I'm the one that has faith we could make a better M if the efforts where there, and I don't want a D. So, I would want my H to be the responsible one. Even if I was filed with papers today, I would tell H I don't want this, and I think he will regret it eventually, but if that's the only way he would be happy I will release him.

For now, I will move forward with a happier me.