I went to exercise yesterday evening after trying to shoot another beautiful sunset. During the exercise session, I got a Happy new year text from WW. I responded about three hours later telling her "you too thanks!". That's it. No birthday wishes, no calls, nothing. After that, my mind began to wander and my reflection on the sitch and how it is going to play out this year began to snowball into anxiety-causing thoughts. Divorce ran rampant. Finding more truths about WW and OM (still not detached) was also another thought. It made for a very stressful and sad evening. But I somehow fell asleep.
I woke up in a panic following dreams of me having sex with WW. During the dream, I knew that the sex was too good to be true and I just wished for the fantasy to be over so that I can get along with my life again. Sure enough, I did.
More anxious thoughts, more snowballing, and then I got thoughts of WW coming back with an engagement ring on her finger. So internally I was an anxious wreck. I was able to do my job though and got wrapped up in a project that kept my mind occupied for most of the day. During my lunch, WW called. I did not answer because I was working. She texted me five minutes later asking me to call when I can. I called a few minutes later. She tried to idly chat about her week (just had an easy night in pajamas for her birthday...right) and told me how she is older and whatnot. I am 96% sure that she was trying to coax a "Happy Birthday" out of me.
Never happened.
She then asked me how mine was. I said it was fun and then asked what's up? She wanted to talk about why I broke down Sunday when I was talking to D4. I told her I was fine and that I was just having a rough evening. I then talked to D4 for a few more minutes before hanging up the call.
Kept myself busy throughout the afternoon and went home. I checked the mail, and her ER bill came in...and it is significant. And it is going to be her problem to solve. I need to prepare my speech now. Because I know come Friday morning I am going to get a flurry of calls and texts asking me how we're going to resolve this. I plan on saying that the bill is her responsibility to figure out. Any other thoughts on how I should proceed with this impending talk?
