Joe, you must feel like you're in entirely new terrain. I suppose you are.
You say that you're having trouble having faith. I feel like having (blind) faith is a blessing you only get with a new partner. That blind trust that they won't hurt you. With your experience with your XW you can't really have blind faith this early in the game no matter how much you both wish it so.
I expect that's really difficult. Part of your brain wishes you could pick back up where you left off, because that's where you are both familiar. But since that road is blocked to you, you're both navigating to find what other paths are options.
I think you're doing a great job at being honest throughout your search. It sounds like she is as well. So even though you have to take a different road this time, you both still may get to your destination.
It's like your previous shared path is blocked, so you've each chosen another side-route to get there. And along the way you're calling out, "Marco!" "Polo!" to be sure the other is still headed in the same direction. You're hoping these new paths will converge soon so you can continue to travel together.
