BTW, it looks like our ‘meeting’ will be pushed back until Friday. Praise God, I guess.
Some other thoughts.....
I know NO EXPECTATIONS and NO MIND-READING....and I could be totally wrong about this, but tossing these thoughts out in to the universe and out of my consciousness....
But I wonder if maybe she wants to talk about her outburst towards me and YS earlier last week—maybe she finally realizes that things aren’t totally right with her / us.
What’s been bouncing around my mind this most is: Or she could ask for a separation....tell me her intentions and then we actually do that when she gets back from her training at the end of this calendar year. I know it sounds stupid and ridiculous, but I know that WAS are hard to predict and harder to justify....Once she gets some clarity on her position and where she will be transferred to, that may give her clarity to actually go through with it. Of course if she pulls that, I could always go with ‘why wait....if you truly want out, I won’t stop you, starting now.’
When W and YS came back earlier this afternoon, W asked me “So, you just threw my laundry in the laundry basket?” I didn’t really respond to that....and it’s not like she has folded my laundry in a while anyway, so we just ignore the other’s laundry.
I hate to harp on this, but.....I really wonder if the IUD may be causing her some problems, and she may just not be aware or just not care. She has a copper IUD—and not the hormonal one that is essentially an abortifacient. Rather, this IUD is effectively a spermicide. I mean, I’m still not a fan, but I guess it’s preferable to the alternatives. Some effects of copper IUDs include heavier periods, as well as copper toxicity, which could really mess with her moods. I know I should take care when researching online, but I also saw that copper IUDs could potentially add to PPD and any sort of psychosis, and thus make things worse.
