Ellie, I'm sorry for the sadness. Though it's good you recognize it for what it is, and why.
It's funny how our family's stories come back like this through the generations. I can anticipate the grief I may feel when I turn 50 (the age of my mother when she died) or when my daughter turns 25 (the age I was at the time of the crash that killed both my folks).
So are you going to do something to nurture that bereft high school girl in you today? An ice cream soda maybe, or sneak out for an afternoon matinee? Are you going to reflect with your H about this moment?
