I noticed that you joined the board the same time I did. If it makes you feel better, the feelings you are having right now are parallel to what mine are - still grieving, still not detached, but worked on and improved ourselves and continuing to do so. We still have hope for some kind of R, but the hope dwindles just a bit more every day. I'm sure if we ask those who have gone through this process, they would say that our feelings at this point of the process was normal.
We just need to keep going, T. We really don't have any other choice.