I felt pretty good today actually. I was bored and didn't do anything exciting whatsoever, and I'm not looking forward to starting work again tomorrow even though it has been really good for me to keep me occupied up to this point, so it's probably just getting back into the swing of things. But I think maybe why I liked NOT having the work distraction is because it really is mostly a distraction, and during this time off I've had a little more time to think (probably too much than I need, but still).
I'm also looking forward to annual review time (or the results of it from last year I should say). Hoping there was enough left over to give me a little boost in pay to make things at least a tad more comfortable in the situation I'm in!
Other than that, I need to go bathing suit shopping and muster up the energy to pack for a trip with my girlfriend next week... I am anxious about it but also glad that I will be with her, and hopefully I can relax and experience some sort of epiphany of being happy without H while I'm there. Fingers crossed!
Oh, and I did think of some specific things H used to do that I HATED today, like really really wanted him to change. It made me feel good for like 30 seconds, then I just went right back to not caring about his flaws. Ugh. Weak.
H:39 W:30 M:4 T:9
05/2018: H says "ILYBNILWY", BD 07/2018: Discovered A, confronted 09/2018: PA + other details emerge; H moved out 12/2018: I filed 03/2019: Divorce finalized
