Divorce and Acceptance part 3

[Pax_luv]

Happy new year!

First, I want to thank you, Pinn and Job for the input about my dad. I know it’s not DB, but it’s been weighing on me. It’s been a couple years since I’ve had the deep convo with my dad. The last time was with my ex and we were nudging him to get healthier because we wanted him around a long time as a grandpa. It’s hard. I do think he will need to hit rock bottom and that’s scary.

So, this post comes to you from the airport. I just spent a couple days with the bestie and had the best time. I’m a little upset to return to reality, but it is what it is. Got some new developments on the divorce and financial front and I don’t even know what to say. My lawyer is on vacation and I can’t wait to speak with him because I’m freaking out (as usual). I just can’t do this anymore. I can’t even believe he would do this to another human. While this new development may not have any merit.... I’m just shocked. It took 3 years for a new loan to surface which makes me think it’s fake/fraud. Can’t really share anymore than that right now. Unbelievable.

So, I’m calm, but anxious and on the verge of tears. I know escaping isn’t the right thing to do, but I just want to bury my head in the sand. No more.

Anyway....
On another topic...

A couple years ago, i adapted a tradition from one of our old posters, Ciluzen. She always inspired me.
She took the first animal she saw in the new year as her spirit animal for the year and I loved it so much, I adapted it as well.

Last year, my animal was a rabbit. They are known for their resiliency, agility, and are skiddish because they are always under threat. Yep.... that’s me! And that was my year!

I was telling my friend, gee I hope I get a tough animal this year! I don’t want to be in survival mode anymore!

Well, I woke up this morning and on our way out, we came across a pit bull! Yeah!!!! I’ll take it. I already did my research and pit bulls are associated with justice. They are protective. They are loyal. They are strong! I love it! Yessss.... let’s get some justice this year!!!

I hope you all started the new year on a positive note!