I'm feeling very sad and depressed today. A lot of reflecting on 2018, the miscarriages, trying to buy a house with my WW, then DDay in August.
I can't help but feel sad and lost as this year comes to a close. I'm glad it's ending and I pray 2019 will be more positive for me. It can't really get any worse. I would have never dreamt 12 months ago, that 2018 would be so miserable for me.
I haven't heard from my WW since early October, where she messaged me saying she wanted a Divorce.
The last time I saw her in person and spoke to her properly was mid-September.
I'm trying to focus on what i have in my life, good friends and family who all love and care about me. I can't change the feeling that I was discarded so cruelly and coldly by someone who said: "I love you more than I love myself".
I will continue to work on myself and GAL. I'm detaching and have not initiated anything to her since September. I have no idea what she's doing or how she's feeling. AFAIK, the A is still ongoing.
The next 6-12 months will tell a lot.
BH: 36 WW:33 M: 2 Relationship: 6 years. Dday: Aug 2018 0 1st mention of D: 30/09, 2nd Mention 17/02/2019 LRT: Oct 2018 WW & AP: EA & PA since June 2018 (Moved country and in with AP Feb 2019)
