Wow, Sandi wrote some really great stuff to you Pain. I agree with her. We know you can move forward because you have shown that you can time and time again.
I sometimes get paralyzing fear as well. I do something similar to what Sandi was suggesting above: I name it. I stop, and think to myself, "Oh, why don't I want to do ____? Because of FEAR". There's something about naming it that transforms the emotion from a lead ball that lives in your gut to something you can tackle.
