YUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

Okay - just have to vent here a little.
Tonight we are entertaining h's new fellow - who will be working closely with him (under him) for the next three years. He had already warned me a while ago that she broke the "nanny rule" - the rule I used to have when my kids were little that I wouldn't hire anyone as a nanny that I thought my H might conceivably find attractive.

So anyway - he had invited her to a "welcome dinner". No sweat. Then this afternoon he calls to let me know she's coming over early to go surfing with him before dinner (we all remember how OW hooked my H by pretending to be interested in learning to surf, right?). So I take S12 to his guitar lesson, pick up groceries for dinner, and start dinner while they surf. When they show up, she's with her roommate - a good-looking guy, and I start to feel a little foolish, until I realize they really are just roommates - nothing more. Roommate leaves, we all have dinner - the fellow seems nice enough, but not overly friendly to me in that reassuring way some women have of making sure you know they are not interested in your H She's 18 years younger, as thin as I was before children and thyroid disease, and very interested in the sports my H engages in.

Okay, I'm holding my own - really, I don't suspect my H of a thing., I'm just not happy at the prospect of three years of watching my back, and unhappy about my H having had the affairs in the first place that make me be this suspicious person instead of the normally easy-going gracious woman I am.

Now they are doing some work together at the other end of the room, and it's clear that she's very bright to boot - not brighter than me, but she's in my H's field. And I'm here venting to all of you about HATING being in a position where I even have to think about possibilities like that, because it is SO not like me to be a jealous person, in fact that's probably why I was blindsided the way I was before, because I was so confident and trusting. YUCKKKK!!!!! I have sticky affair residue on my shoes and I can't get it off!!!!!

On the brighter side - I get to go to Chicago with my H for the weekend and I'm having lunch with Manisha (AlmostGone) on Saturday

Ellie