Letting Go. Detaching. Done Engaging.

[Did]

I’ve had pain in my calf for three days. Got checked out today. I have two blood clots in my calf. Got on blood thinners. Stress can be a factor. I’m an extremely healthy dude. Never get sick.

Told W no contact tried to explain my thinking. She said there is nothing to work on but yourself. She seems to think she is perfectly fine. And maybe this is all caused by me. I take responsibility and accountability I’ve done a lot of things wrong. She gives reasoning she was sleeping when she was in underwear knowing I was coming to talk 2 hours after we texted. I don’t think she takes accountability or owns the truth. And I can’t have that in my life anymore.

I can’t do the separate or leeeway thing anymore. Focusing on me. This is the second major health issue I’ve had that can be stress related during the separation. For anyone following in a similar position. Let them go ask them not to let the door hit them on the way out. Then work on yourself. Don’t do what I did and focus on them so much.

Working on being a better DID. Thanks all for the support. I’ve made a lot of mistakes but going dark or dim with D4. Will be consistent. Feb 1 is my timetable for divorce