Nic - I'm sorry that reality has come crashing in again. What a terrible blow over the holidays. Hugs to you and your D.
Yes single parenting can be daunting. I remember those days and my S was an infant. I worked 40-50hr a week, I did every middle of the night feeding/waking up... it was just me... totally me. I was exhausted and sad for awhile but now nearly 17yr later I wouldn't change a thing!!! Yes it was disappointing that my son was a statistic now and I wouldn't have that desired nuclear unit that I dreamed about... but as we end the final years of his high school my kid is happy, I'm happy.
Its okay to be sad. Its okay to be disappointed.
But girl... while you don't have to be the first to file you go get yourself an atty on retainer... you go get those ducks lined up because if he is itching for a fight you will not be run over.
2019 is the year of Nic... what Nic needs for Nic!!!!